The last couple of days as I have sat down to get my thoughts together and everything lined up for the Mexico trip, I can't help but think about Jason and miss him. Thinking of all that he still wanted to teach my boys about fishing and hunting. All the fun we would be having with the snow and him pulling us around on a car hood hooked to the 4-wheeler. How he would have laughted so hard about Sami catching her hair on fire. I had started feeling broken hearted all over again. As I was looking to add a Bible verse to our blog, of course Be Still and Know that I am God. Psalms 46:10, came to mind. And as I was thinking about all that verse really means and what it is saying, I feel God was comforting me saying, "Tanya, I'm still here, I have never left you." Which then brought to mind Joshua 1:5, As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you or forsake you. God's promise that he gave to Joshua -"I will be with you, I will never leave you or forsake you"- is the same promise God gives to all of his followers as they go through the struggles of life.
For those who haven't heard me talk about it, here is a short piece taken from something I wrote after Jason had died:
At the hospital, Be still and know I am God, kept running through my mind. I knew it was in the Bible (Psalms 46:10) and as I studied up on it, it brought even more comfort. The Hebrew word used here can also be translated as Enough, quit holding onto things that may be distracting or weighing you down. Throughout God’s Word and though our individual lives, we have seen evidence of God’s presence and power at work for his people, that we can be at peace in the fact that he has everything under control.
Wow, basically he was telling me, ‘Tanya, don’t worry, I know what I’m doing.’
At the hospital, Be still and know I am God, kept running through my mind. I knew it was in the Bible (Psalms 46:10) and as I studied up on it, it brought even more comfort. The Hebrew word used here can also be translated as Enough, quit holding onto things that may be distracting or weighing you down. Throughout God’s Word and though our individual lives, we have seen evidence of God’s presence and power at work for his people, that we can be at peace in the fact that he has everything under control.
Wow, basically he was telling me, ‘Tanya, don’t worry, I know what I’m doing.’
I realized again today, that I need not worry, not let it trouble me, that my brother is gone. It is ok for me to miss him, and remember him, and think about him, but when my heart is getting down, think of the good, what God himself has been saying to me. And know that God is in control and that he will never leave me.
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I love you, Tanya. You made me cry but God is good and you are a great friend. beautiful...
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